My thoughts at Midnight

It's been a year. I have friends that have tried longer. I have friends that don't have to try, it just comes naturally. My husband is supportive. I have zits on my face. My hair is pulled back, I won't blow dry it, it looks horrible. I have worked many many nights in a row. I hope Chris's test results come back soon. I should be doing my homework reading. I wish I was on a beach. I will soon be on a beach. I have a lot to do before I am on a beach. I have many friends. I have only one best friend. My best friend is a guy. I wish I lived someplace warm for all seasons. I am glad I live so close to my family. Chris wants to ride his bike. I don't want to gain weight. I am going to the gym tomorrow. I can only lift weights. I have drawn a lot of blood tonight. I smile at the comment, "So your a vampire?" I wish I could go to school to be an esthetician. I want to be an esthetician. I want to be a good mom. My mom is my 2ND best bud. She makes me laugh. I probably won't be a mom til I am 30. 30 is not old. Never mind 30 is old. Chris is going to be 30. What am I going to do for his birthday? I am two years away from 30. Most of my friends are young. Wish I was young. I am loosing years off my life working nights. I like to work nights. No management on nights. I love to sleep. Slept all day today. Haven't gone to church in 4 weeks. Need to go to church. I haven't plucked my eyebrows in forever. I don't think I will for again. Ha ha who am I kidding. I like how they look now. Thank you for listening. I am emotionally drained. Our conversation was what I needed. I feel better now. I will change. Your words are circling my mind. I thank you. I love you.